up in mid air

Let me put this into a few words.

2006-03-06T03:53:49Z

Lately, life has been completely overwhelming. Lately, life usually adds up in the strangest of equations.

I can't really tell who I am anymore. I love God, but my relationship with him is stagnant and that is rotten.

It's ironic because even in all this nonsense, I still am having more fun with my life then ever. I've been experiencing every high and low possible lately and it's consuming me.

Who do I want to be? I don't even know.

God is unbelievably good even when we are completely undeserving.

2005-06-24T01:40:01Z

I am in Dallas, Texas right now. Texas is always a badtrip. It's twilgith zone meets weaponery. People are just so enthusiastic abotu agression. Anyway, we had a day off today except the whole day or atleast the majority was spent driving from Kansas City to Dallas, 12 hours or so. I am sitting in our hotel room at Microtel suites. (By the way, if you ever want beautiful hotels at ridiculously low prices use priceline.com!) Im chilling here with the boys and my lady. We were supposed to go to the movies tonight with a group of people except we decided to call it a night. Way too much laundry to do,manicures,toner,schedule,routing and paperwork to do...I just dont think ti repsonsible to go out. On top of it, with heat stroke for the past few days, I am ridiculously tired and need to recuperate. Good chance to.Bible study has been such a blessing, I can now say officially that my walk with God is slowly beign fixed by God's incredibly compassion and mercy..and hardcore patience. I can be such a fool but he sticks it out with me.

ALL IN ALL, the point of this entry was to say God is great.
Living without him is not living at all. Get to know him!!!

p.s i miss my girls.

p.s sacha rules.

Im a hustler, axe about me.

2005-04-09T22:48:24Z

Alright so, I havent gotten this bitch or updated and a totally tubular long time. The following , is what you can say, a little new in my life. I have plenty of plans, but i dont know where to start yet. i want to dissapear from montreal sometimes. i swear, i could kick someone in the shin. It makes me agressive and caca and caca x two. I never feel low when im anywhere else, always here. but , good side of things is that it is finally summer soon and i can bust out mr. tiny bike and ride whenever i want. i miss that. also , my working out has been going good which is lookign pretty promising. also, on another note the days are becoming prettier and prettier and i seriously love it. it sucks when i complain becaus ehonestly, god is so spectacular, i dont think its fair when i bitch about petty things.i want ot be on fire for god, and focus on him instead of myself and my mongloidness.also, boys are fine fine creatures. they are the epitome of trouble.

alright alright, i think its time to go shower. tonight were going to le jet club, holllllaaaa.

if someone wants to get in touch, i am here to talk to anyone who needs help on this live journal junk.

514 792 7798

I AM ANGRY

2005-03-28T17:06:59Z

i hate nasty ass bitches that get attention and are praised for being nasty ass bitches.

holy cow i am aggravated.

DOME + HOTEL NIGHTS EQUALS MADNESS GUARANTEED

2005-02-28T06:11:31Z

(answering to why he could not take a greyhound to toronto.)

SO I HAVE LIKE 200$ SAVED FOR THE TRIP TO TORONTO. if 100$ goes to the bus, and then another 100$ goes to the hotel, then that leaves me 0$ for the tickets to the show or for food. and those two are KEY.

AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

its still funny now. scotty= intense.

also, poor twiggy all shady and squished in the backseat of a crazy taxi drivers cab.

ahahahahahahahaa i love adventures.

FRESHEST OF THE ILLEST

2005-02-24T04:50:55Z

this weekend, hotel gathering. we are hooking up a suite with the hot tub this time. but well be there the whole evening this time.

i am so sick, its crazy. I mean, yea it could be hellishly worse, but i think complaining makes me feel better. Im cold and i need soup. someone make me warm soup.

besides that, jesus is phenomenal and life is surprising me every 4 minutes.

this is how we do,

angeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelina

p.s someone pronoucned my name the other day liek angel-y-na,
like angelina but vagina. VAGINA. rotten word plus it does not suit my name well.

p.p.s i went into paris hiltons tmobile adress book and turns out that shit is not a hoaxx. I called ashlee simpson...no answer. i called victoria gotti....no answer. i call fred durst and the bastards voicemail goes off and hes like, shit the fbi is lookign for all you sick fucks who keep calling me. bla bla bla. it was phenomenal, i almost shit my pants.

word.

SATURDAY NIGHT RULED.

2005-02-21T04:30:20Z

Ok so this is the deal.
THE DOME WAS AMAZING.
I danced my ass off and acted like a gangster and my friends and i ruled school. Whoever didnt come sucks, and missed the best night of their lives. Then afterwards we rented a hotel and it was ILL. that place was huge except people complain so easily its weird. The neighbors were all up on our ass the minute we got in the door.
ANYWAYS
besides that, scotty and tommy dance radically.

i have to bounce,

BEST BIRTHDAY EVER.

p.s you make me wild.

Its my birthday.

2005-02-15T19:34:24Z

Im 19, that is unbelievable to me. As well as quite a suprise to those who were strangely convinced I was 27 years old.

So i guess im getting older and thats cool cause i want to grow up. I enjoy being 19 but i guess with age comes some stability. Im kinda craving that.Im still excited to see the years coming ahead and i AM definately grateful to be alive to be here with all the good people i have come into contact with over my little life.

To those who wished me hapy birthday, you are AMAZING.

They're watching her with eyes closed.

2005-02-10T06:12:50Z

This is my first entry since ive gotten back/an entry made in a super long time. I kidna have alot of stuff to say and a whole lot of nothing to say. Being away was good, it let me reinvent myself in a strange way. Believe me, there is plenty of reinventing to still be done. EXCEPT it gave me the chance to breathe a different air. Wil i go back? Yes, eventually. How soon or how late, that i dont know. I guess i am not even thinking about that right now.It feels good to see the people i cared about most. who i havent seen in the flipping longest time ever.I want to be able to experience things a whole lot more. I want to experience things over again. It gets hard to explain to people what my intentions are, for anything for that matter. Whether it be school or work or relationships or whatever. Seriously, i dont have a clue. I just want to feel close to god and reprioritize things so that i dont get left on the side lines of life. I've been so blessed this year. I cannot even begin to fathom the things that have gone on in my life. But im here, right now and I have to make the best of it. There are a couple of things that I'd like to say to some people in specific.Im not trying to be dramatic.

Milena- I am seriously in love with you. You are my best friend and I could never do anything without you. Even when your not around, your my strength.You always were.
Maura-I cant wait to hold you and hug you and kiss you and tell you i missed you. I cant wait to be the one watching you cry again, watching you laugh again.
Eva- You know how much I care about you. I feel its necessary to tell you your an unbelievable person. I wouldnt be me without you.
CARO-We dont gossip like any others. We rule school. It makes me angry sometimes, when i see how much time we wasted. The best times of my life were with the tripod. It will always be that way. You complete the triangle perfectly, because you are perfect.
xscottx-Before i got here, we were so excited to see eachother. If i dont show it enough, I am just as excited every morning to have you as one of my friends and brothers in Christ.

There are others who I count important. They knwo who they are, this is obvious. You people are the ones who brought me back.

I am so excited to see what life has coming for me.

Why today was phenomenal.

2005-01-14T06:44:01Z

Because scotty makes me blush.

Snoop dogg.

2005-01-06T22:08:53Z

So i realized that i love snoop dogg except when i go to bed its stuck in my head and actually gives mr problems when im trying to sleep. Therefore snoop dogg and pharell are secret connotations of the devil.
I miss my friends. I will be home soon for a bit. WELCOME ME HOME WARM STYLES!

midaircrisis @ 2004-12-26T11:29:00

2004-12-26T21:29:24Z

god is amazing.seriously.

FORGET ME NOT

2004-12-19T09:49:54Z

THOSE WORDS, YOUR WORDS. IM HOME HAVENT YOUR HEARD THE RING, THE SOUND OF MY VOICE.
I KNOW IT ISNT MUCH, THATS WHY I SAY YOUR NAME, WHEN I FALL WHEN I HIT THE BOTTOM...

SAY YOUR NAME.... WHEN I FALL... WHEN I HIT THE BOTTOM.

HOW MANY MORE YEARS OF UNSPOKEN WILL HAVE TO UNFOLD BEFORE YOU REALIZE THAT WHAT WE DO TO EACHOTHER IS BEYOND COMPARISON TO WHAT ANYONE ELSE CAN DO?

arg

2004-12-13T04:33:35Z

I changed my number and adress again, and for the last time i promise.
Love love love,
if you need it ask,
xx

The most important summer of my life.

2004-11-25T23:02:17Z

Ive got it bad.
I was just watching tv, its thanksgiving over here and I stumbles on the warped tour reunion special on fuse tv.You know, I could sit here forever and sound like a dork and sound even egotistical at times, but let me tell you one thing and hear me out.
Warped tour changes your life, nomatter how many times you do it or how independant of a spirit you are. It is the most over whelming experience, the one that really makes or breaks you character. If anyone knows how hard I worked to get there, and here, they'd understand. I've set many goals for myself throughout my lifetime, and god be dmned if i havent fallen through with every one of them. Even if i failed, or succeeded Ive become the person I am today because of them.Jesus really blessed me with oppurtunities many of you havent gotten the chance to jump on. Please, aspire, motivate yourselves and do big things, for yourselves at least. Stop convincing yourselves you cannot suceed because you can. I owe money, I havent necssearily become rich out of anything i've done, but God, I have lived things I wanted for myself since I'm young.Touring is like nothing in the world, and you cannot understand till you do it yourselves because my explanation can barely do it justice. It's unreal and so real at the same time. It reminds you of how alive you are, and how many things you take for granted and how good life REALLY is. I am going to continue to set goals, and reach them, with everythign that I am. I am going to work hard, got to school next year, get an internship and do the things I want to do. I am going to set my career in stone and make sure people understand who I am and how much I can do for their company or respective parties.

Cheers to plenty of punk rock sleep away summer camps to come,

- Angie

midaircrisis @ 2004-11-22T23:46:00

2004-11-23T09:48:19Z

Perhaps someone could claify why or what is happening regarding the lawsuit between Blessed By A Broken Heart/Blood and INk VS Time Warner regarding sound clips. This seems ot be getting serious and just wanted to know what was going on if anyoen does have a tad bti more information than sketchy rumous or what not.

Besides that, i miss the fuck out of people but I know christ has my out here for a bigger and better reason,please keep praying if you care. Ill be praying for you.

hawaii is beautiful.

misses and kisses,
angelina.

How much I miss my friends and other thoughts.

2004-11-14T08:47:11Z

Each passing day is more wonderful then the other and i really feel that god is doing such unbelievable things for me. As well as the people around me, mind you. YOu know, its already beena month and It seems like i have been gone for barely a week. Im moving into my apprtment monday, and i am so lookign forward to that.i work all the time, but this way it keeps me busy and out of trouble, literally. i am tempted, all the time, but i work work work, make money to live and live richly in different ways. Tonight i went on a shopping burst at the alamoana mall in downtown honlulu, it is fukin incredible. this mall is just.....prada, gucci, lv, chanel, just everything ands anything you want ot look at and buy.i still get discounts at vans and hot topics around the nations so i bought shoes, and dresses and bras, and skirts and whatever. this post is oging to be randmon but atleats it allows the people who love me to read and acknowledge. anyway, i bought makeup and body products and just really treateed myself. tomorrow i have service in the am, then i have ot go see the apprtment, then i have a youth group tomorrow night. so its going to be running on low all day long, i need a little sleep ishould get off soon.
im working onw arped tour again next year too, so it doesnt leave me much down time. god, i just love everything about my life right now, my precious precious lord, is just unbelievable.
eva and my dad are coming out to visit me for two weeks, the 28th of dec till januray, i am absolutely stoked for their arrival.
and one of my favourite ppl in the world is moving out here.
things are....just so good.

i love love love you milena and eva and maura and carolyne. dont forget that.

Living in Honolulu hawai'i

2004-10-19T01:24:19Z

This is beautiful. Evrything is beautiful here. Its like twilight zone, like God picked me up in montreal and dropped me off over here. It is goign to be lots of work and all, i know. im trusting in christ to give me strength and encourage me. Im starting a whole new life, its not easy without the lord.
im checkign out apprtments thisd week and going to try to pick up a moped and all so i can cruise around town in something bad ass.

i miss you.
i really do, i only wish the people i care about could experience this with me.
waking up to smell of fresh air and he sounds of wind chimes and birds is beautiful. waking up to the views of mountains and ocean is suureal. feeling the breeze in my air everywhere i go is spectacular. i feel alive, i cant wait to see the rest of the adventure to come.

lord jesus christ, thank you.

love love love.
those who care, do not forget.

angelina G.

wow.

2004-07-03T01:20:37Z

livejournal. i didnt think id stumble on this for a while.
well well well, umm. i miss maura and danny and milena and carolyne and josh, thats about it. sure id liek to see everyoen else, but quite frankly, the itme nor distance away from all my other godo friends doenst TREALLY bother me. aside form that, i DO miss evryone i should.and i am keeping everyone in my prayers. please pray for me too guys. touring is a hard thing to do believe it or not.
<3

havent done this in a while.

2004-04-23T21:27:51Z

Wow. It has been too long since I've written in LJ.
And alas after a while of independancy, I succomb to the poor poor excuse of a complaint sponge that we call LIVEJOURNAL. Ladies and gentlemen, we can officially be dissapointed in me.

I was reflecting on alot of things this morning,mostly on old friends. People i genuinely cared about and lost for one reason or another. I can hold my head high and say, fuck it. you all have something else better to do anyways.apprently. it hurts though, because i do have a heart. A heart that pays to much attention.

oh yes, stephanie, as in outofheart LJ , I am extremeley dissapointed in you. this is the last time I feel like dealing with you putting your nose in things. who are you to tell X that really, my relationship with him means nothing because im like that with every guy? which guys? who the hell are you to even know anything about my relationships with anyone. I dont need him to doubt my intentions. and your the last person who is goign to affect my relationships with friends.

besides that, i am generally blessed with my life. very blessed even. i just miss alot of friends.

post out.
To those who read and dont judge
love you
xxx

its been a while.

2004-03-28T21:58:57Z

I wish Live JournaL WAS actually a journal where I could let otu what i feel and think. instead i wake up and realize that this damn thing still is a desperate attempt to get attention, nomatter who you are or what your intentions are.
were all good people, but we are pathetic.

but what the f have i been up to since the last time i posted....

I had a couple fo job interviews all dealignn with leaving for 4- 6 months. The original plan was to leave for warped tour june 23rd and comer back august 26th. Now i had a job offer for Club Med, for a year. and it would be wonderful, i admit. and i could do the tour next year, no problem, but i cnat help tp feel stressed, know what i mean. Even though i clearly knwo God will work out his will regardless how my worry some nature feels.

I have orientation thursday, well check how this works out.

I have bills to pay.credit to clear, thinsg to make better. bigger things that are calling my name, i just am dying to knwo what God has in store for me. The biggest thing i ever had to do was be patient for God.

Lately, Ive come to the faint realisation that most of who claim we have found God are liars. we are lying to ourselves and christ himself. the word of God makes clear that anyone who claims they have seen God, and keep sinning, have really nto seen him at all, but those who have sinned and found God, and stopped sinning are those who really have seen the face of God. How do we expect to come to God in sincerity and attempt to be righteous men and women if we continue to do these things that displease him? and yes, he is our father, and its is right for him to correct and punish us, so why do we complain when things dont go our way.Ive just been thinkigin alot lately, and noticing that ppl I owuld normally look to for guidance, and lying ot themslelves as well.its killign me, becauze I just wish that when id say, God i surrender, work in my life, that id stick to ym side of the deal. becuz this plan i am dying for will NEVER pull through if i keep breaking thwe contract. and Christ, being a gentlmen, backs off, gives us our space till were ready to give up once and for all. why dont we get the point? we are NOTHING without God. like a carcass amongst vultures. and yet we deny ourselves of His love. its like, we want it our way, no matetr what, even though our way sucks.

what else has been going on with me. oh yea, boys boys boys. I want one. They should ahev a acatalogue, to order on call, i would be amazing. i get a nice one, then i leave him, and the same hting happenes over an dover again, grow up angela.

ok.
later mother fucker.
love you witht he bottom of my heart.
<3333333333333

in case anyoen forgot, my number is 881 9885
xxx

eesh capeesh, obviously.

2004-02-17T09:06:21Z

Valentines day,was the same as any other day. The love I feel for everyone remains strong every day of the year, although I wouldve liked to have aboy to call mine, wtv.

Jamie....there is not much to say except when there was nothing in the hospital room except me and him breathing, I felt that if i lost him I wouldnt ever live the same way. I knew Jesus was with him, givinghim strength, but i havent felt worried like that in forver. I care about him so much god.

The Lord is Good. He saves.

Besides that my birthday was crap. Im a little dissapointed. very actually. but ive learnt not to expect anything more from people who arent thatinterested in surprising me and making me smile. Merci quand meme tyler and eva, you did make the day enjoyable.
Thursday we are going to the foufs to party itup for my 18thbirthday. ANYONE THAT IS INTERESTED SHOULD DEF COME FOR A GOOD TIME.

anyway
i love you guys.
call me if you need absolutely anything

angelina xx
keep my in your prayers.

Please be the answers to my prayers.

2004-02-08T09:29:54Z

If anyone knows of a job opening anywhere, and i mean anywhere that does involve hookers,pimps,pervs,child abuse
PLEASE
get in touch with me.
I am going through rough times right now.
If not please keep me in your prayers.

All my love.

Just a note.

2004-02-08T09:23:26Z

One of the most talented boys i know, RENAUD, deserves more attention then hes getting.He has really motivated me these past few months and I owe him more then you can imagine. Tu moffre de linspiration when I feel like nothing is getting anywhere.je taime fort pour ca meme si tu le sais pas.

PLEASE PLEASE go check out his site.

http://designtragedy.free.fr

WORKING WITH HIM IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE SMARTEST THINGS YOU WILL EVER DO.

On a lesser note, I am doing alright.Struggling with stress and whatnot. Jesus will provide. He always does.

and to the person who put me in this rut, I never though youd do this to me. You took my heart and broke it in three.

On an even betetr note
i efifn love all you bounes liek crazy.

Lady Luck Has the Lord.

2004-01-23T05:58:14Z

I am sitting around wondering if it'll ever be me. Then i realize the day will come when all those who laughed will laugh no longer. I will be sitting at the right side of The king of kings. You on the other hand will be worrying on how.....

These are the two most wonderful people I've been blessed enough to settle testimony to.

Maura and Danny.
Real smiles are all I let slide when they are around.

I still love all my sister and brothers, But these deserve special recognition.

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